NOTE TO SELF: SURVIVING COLLEGE.
NOTE: I’m posting this based on my previous experiences. MY EXPERIENCES. This may or may not be applicable to you. And also, I swore I would let my fangirling self lie low this semester but I just realized that I CAN’T, I JUST CAN’T. So I’m posting this to remind me and for you to be able to gain some insights.
My friend once asked me, ‘how did you manage to be a fangirl and a student at the same time?’
First, let me introduce myself. I’m Christine Mae, a 3rd year college student majoring in Financial Management. I’m a student-fangirl, a student and a fangirl. STUDENT-FANGIRL. That’s inseparable, really.
Fangirling is my passion and profession. It’s not just a hobby, it’s already a part of my system. I don’t get why people always refer fangirling as something that can destroy you and your studies, like it’s a sinful vice that would destroy your entire life. I do believe that it depends upon the person. I treasure fangirling a lot, I treat it like a special talent that I need to continuously improve. And it’s something that I’m proud of.
‘Compete only with your best self.’ –anonymous
That’s what I always keep in mind. I don’t have to compete with other people, I only have to compete with my best self, a healthy competition. I consider my fangirling self as my imperfect but best self, and yes, Christine-the student & Christine-the fangirl are both in a constant battle.
My fangirling self can spazz 100x day, finish a drama in 2 nights, finish a long fic in a few hours, can download stuffs immediately and all and can stay up until 2am if needed.
My student self CAN’T even recite in class in one, CAN’T finish a project 2 nights, CAN’T even read 1 chapter of notes in a few hours, CAN’T understand lessons immediately, and CAN’T stay up until 2am for reviewing purposes.
See? This only shows that my fangirling self is in the lead right from the start. My fangirling self is already in a close-to-perfect condition so I won’t bother to change anything.
What about my student self? Will I just let my student self lose? NO.
My studies and scholarship are still important for me though. It’s how I make my parents feel proud and happy of me. I can be a mediocre person, but I chose to be not. Though I don’t strive for A++++ grades, I still want to have good and better grades. But how would I do that if I lack the inspiration and the drive? That’s why I can’t lose my fangirling self. It’s one of the things that keep me going.
So here’s a few points I want to share and remind myself:
- KNOW YOUR LEARNING STYLE. We often hear this from our teachers before, but most of the time, we just tend to ignore it. THIS IS DEFINETLY USEFUL. I TELL YOU. Audio? Visual? What?
Lucky for me, I already discovered during my high school years so it came in handy in college. I’m an Audio-Visual learner, I do prefer to study on my own, and I have a photographic memory. Don’t think of this as a limitation and/or weakness, think of this as a strength and/or opportunity.
- When you’re already aware of your learning style, now it’s time to IMPLEMENT STUDY HABITS based on your learning style.
Since I don’t like to study outside the school after class hours (I’m lazy, y’all know that), my study habits are only applicable to class and lectures. Considering my learning styles, I:
- CHOOSE GOOD SEATS. I choose to sit in the center aisle/second row. Anywhere near the teacher and a seat that has a clear view of the blackboard.
- STUDY MY TEACHER. Yes, I study my teacher. Is that weird? This is a tip. The first month of the semester is crucial. It’s my study month. I study my teacher, their personalities, and teaching styles, how they grade their teacher, etc. When you know how your teacher does his own thing, you can easily keep up with him/her.
- LISTEN ATTENTIVELY and JOT DOWN NOTES. You really can’t talk to me during discussions, you just can’t. Since I don’t study at home, it’s important that I learn/understand the discussions. I need to see and hear the person teaching us, and I have to jot down the important notes. There are ways to effective take down notes and can say that it’s pretty useful. Since I’m a visual learner with a photographic memory, I MUST write down the important parts I want to remember. If I can write it, I can remember it. Even when reading, I still need to take down notes.
These are my study habits, I study while in class, not after class. So classmates, when I tell you I didn’t study, I REALLY DIDN’T.
- DIGEST EVERYTHING YOU CAN DURING LECTURES AND DISCUSSIONS.
For me, learning during classes is much better than studying during nighttime or during your free time. Try to convince yourself that you need to learn/understand that lesson. If you can, then you’re good to go. But remember, understand the concept, analyze everything, don’t rely on universal definitions of things, don’t just rely on given formulas, ask yourself WHY? How did they formulate that formula? What’s the connection between this and that? If you can fully understand the concept, you can answer problems that has been twisted and turned by your evil professors. If you can explain it in your own words, then, you have fully understood it.
- THINK ABOUT YOUR INSPIRATIONS/ YOUR GOALS/ YOUR MISSION. You’re not in school for nothing. Yes, education is a must in our society but you can still opt not to. Why are you in college?
For me, I’ll be honest; I want to conform to the society. I’m in college because it’s a requirement. MY PARENTS. They’ve been working hard just to send me to school. I don’t help out in the business, and this is the only way that I can repay them. It’s my tribute to them. I don’t want them to have a good-for-nothing child. I took this course because of them, because its what they want. I had a choice, and I chose to obey my parents. Lastly, my fangirl self plays an important role too. My parents are tolerating my fangirl activities because I’m doing well in school. If I fail in school, my fangirling self would be doomed. Remind yourself.
- PRAY. College isn’t easy, but God has always been there for us. Don’t just pray when ‘all else fails’, pray every time. Praying is our way of communicating with God. And GOD is the only one who can help us. Thank Him. Ask Forgiveness. Ask for His guidance.
I’ve always believed in the power of prayer, it’s the ONLY thing that helped me throughout college. I always thought that it’s a mystery how I managed to maintain my scholarship for 2 years and to be a part of the Dean’s List for two semesters, and on how I survived those 2 cruel, and not easy years. But no, it’s not a mystery. GOD was there, and He will always be. Only Him can help us. ONLY HIM.
ASSESS YOURSELF. Not with your grades, but with your own understanding. Ask yourself. Did I learn something? Did I?
If there’s one thing I learned in college is that your grades MAY/MAY NOT really reflect your own standing. There are teachers who are generous; there are teachers who are not. There are those so-called-teachers who only gives you handouts, laughs with you, give you good grades but didn’t actually impart some knowledge, and there are teachers who are terror, who gives out really low grades, but somehow have taught a lot of things which you can use even after college. So don’t compare your grades with other people. Sometimes, even though you have lower grades, but you have learned a whole lot more.
HAVE FUN IN LEARNING. COLLEGE IS JUST A CHALLENGE. LEARN AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. HAVE FUN AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. NO ONE IS DUMB, JUST LAZY ONES. EVERYONE CAN SURVIVE. GOD IS WITH US. FIGHT A GOOD FIGHT.
On being a fangirl and a student, my 2 years in college was a proof that being a student-fangirl isn’t impossible. They say fangirling is a wall, but you can always push this wall to become a bridge. (Am I right?lol)
Hopefully, I can maintain this. A balance. If I did it before, I hope I can do it again.
If there’s a will, there’s a way.